I’ve been big on change this entire year, which begs the following
questions: how much more can someone self-destruct and hurt everyone
that they love without changing? When does a person have that “a-ha
moment” or hit rock bottom to realize that change is inevitable? The
sad truth, however, is some people will never change — and this is
the hardest truth for most of us to accept.
Once let go of the idea of changing others, we must focus on changing
ourselves and pondering thoughts, such as: how long will we put
ourselves in this unhealthy co-dependent relationship? Why do we
forget about our own well-being because we are so emotionally vested
in how well others are doing? Don’t we deserve to be happy too? What
are we getting out of this dysfunctional relationship by being “the
rescuer” all the time? Essentially, are we resistant to change ourselves?
Sometimes we have to zero in on the happiness of others that we
neglect what is going on in our own lives. Perhaps we are afraid of
the truth and what our inner voice will tell us.
It took me 12 years to finally take off my blinders, and I continually
ask myself: why so long? Now I know the answers; I’ve finally heard
and yielded the messages originating from the voice that I’ve
successfully shut out all these years.
No doubt, it hurts to hear your own inner voice, which is why I cried
my heart out when the truth came to pass. All I could do was embrace,
forgive, and love myself again.
In retrospect, I never knew how far removed I was from my own body and
spirit. I’m glad I made it “home” again — like whole person –
spiritually, physically and mentally!
If you are feeling lost or unsure of which direction life is taking
you, I hope you listen to your inner voice and come “home” soon
